I have a whole in my heart tonight. It makes studying for my Physics test tomorrow extremely difficult. I guess this is what I wanted, to learn how to fight by myself. When life throws me down, pick myself back up. This is only an exercise to strengthen my muscles in self-discipline, courage, and positivity. Things that break you down really do build you up. I am practicing my ability to dig through and around and over the ugly clutter, until I can see the big picture. And this time, I am doing it alone. It feels good to do this on my own. One day, I will be as strong as Ronda Rousey.